[ estelle's enthusiasm for exploring new places is so cute.
there's no answer for her before she takes in the memory. those aren't feeling she can't understand, the desire not to hurt anyone even at the cost of your own life. ]
I'm glad you found your reasons to keep going.
[ estelle is admirable for fighting her way out - out of being controlled and out of that mindset. ]
It is noble to want to stop yourself from hurting people, however you can, but leaving people behind may be just as hurtful.
[ shinobu knows that sometimes, some options aren't or don't seem possible, but if you can make the impossible possible, that's wonderful, isn't it? ]
You fought off whatever controlled you then, didn't you? It takes strength to want to live, to choose to live, to continue to live. I am also glad you're alive. Your friends who urged you to go back to them are, too, aren't they?
For most of my life, I lived without the freedom to make choices for myself. Everything was decided for me the day I was born.
It wasn't until recently that I learned to really think for myself... to think about what I want, and find the courage to actually fight for it. It was my friends who gave me the strength to do that.
The next emperor was going to be either me or my cousin, Ioder. But the late emperor didn't name an heir before he passed away, so factions started forming around us... It got ugly for a while. I couldn't really go anywhere at all, for my safety.
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there's no answer for her before she takes in the memory. those aren't feeling she can't understand, the desire not to hurt anyone even at the cost of your own life. ]
I'm glad you found your reasons to keep going.
[ estelle is admirable for fighting her way out - out of being controlled and out of that mindset. ]
You are already strong.
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[Estelle's about to blurt out an apology, but Shinobu speaks first.]
... Thank you. I...
I thought I was ready to die, if it was the only way to stop from hurting people...
But I really... I'm just glad I'm alive...
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It is noble to want to stop yourself from hurting people, however you can, but leaving people behind may be just as hurtful.
[ shinobu knows that sometimes, some options aren't or don't seem possible, but if you can make the impossible possible, that's wonderful, isn't it? ]
You fought off whatever controlled you then, didn't you? It takes strength to want to live, to choose to live, to continue to live. I am also glad you're alive. Your friends who urged you to go back to them are, too, aren't they?
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For most of my life, I lived without the freedom to make choices for myself. Everything was decided for me the day I was born.
It wasn't until recently that I learned to really think for myself... to think about what I want, and find the courage to actually fight for it. It was my friends who gave me the strength to do that.
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Are they going to explore the world with you?
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With everything that happened, I ended up losing my candidacy for the throne... but that might have been for the best.
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[ hello? she tries think back to what the guestbook said estelle's occupation was. ]
.... Why you had few freedoms makes sense now.
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The next emperor was going to be either me or my cousin, Ioder. But the late emperor didn't name an heir before he passed away, so factions started forming around us... It got ugly for a while. I couldn't really go anywhere at all, for my safety.
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Even more I am glad you made it through that alive. How did you manage to leave and meet your friends?
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I wanted to leave the castle, but the guards wouldn't let me through... but Yuri happened to cross paths with me then, and he helped me get past them!
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[ a certain type of powerlessness for someone who could assume so much power. ]
That would have been his first time meeting you, wouldn't it?
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[ she's kidding, but she does think estelle is valid. ]
You were right to try to protect yourself.